WishIhadaRX7

Feel better now Baldy?

phinsup

It's kind of funny that he posted this, well not "funny", but a cosmic collision of sorts, or maybe something a little simpler, but you get the point. I had intended on posting my "Moment of Reflection" this morning anyhow, it just so happened that it had some significance with Blady's post.

j9fd3s

ok where the 3rd one?

phinsup

What the hell are you trying to tempt me into not ignoring?

Srce

I feel compelled to let you guys know some things in here about me since everyone seems to be telling us about their life.



I'm pretty good at lying, hiding things form others, hiding my emotions and how and why I think. That might be the reason most people here think that I'm a pretty jolly and otherwise up beat person. BUt I have fears, I have doubts, and yes, like everybody else, I have problems that just seem to kill my spirits at times.



My father was injured at work 4 years ago and hasn't worked since, we burned through our savings in less then 2 years and his old company isn't helping a bit. We've been suing them for those past 4 years and finally it'll be finished soon. I find myself handling everythink with the lawyers, doctors he's been visiting and all that stuff because neitehr of my parent's speaks great English. Sometimes I feel that the whole world is caving in on me, and this is the place where I kind of find my shelter from everything else.



You guys think that I can't find and FD, that's bullshit. I can't find an FD because the 7 SSM's that passed through my fingers all had one thing in common. How can I buy a sports car when my family is about to be evicted from their appartment? So I can't go through with it, 7 cars not bought, all met my criteria. You think you have it bad, ****, count your blessings because sometimes that's all you can do.



You guys criticize me because I live at home, now you know why I do. But regardless of all the jokes and ****, I'm still here, I stand a man and won't let anything bring me down.



Good luck Baldy and everything will work out.

Baldy

That's pretty much exactly how it happened . I went home for lunch, and we talked about it. She said she was upset, because we hate using her money as often as we do, because it doesn't come back (unless I give it back, which isn't happening any time soon). But I know the feeling won't last, because she uses her money on small things, too. Hers was just a natural reaction. But yeah, as much as I didn't want to tell her, I did anyways, just because I knew it was the better thing to do for the relationship.

Baldy

You're a good man, srce. It takes courage and strength to help pull through, and help support family. Sorry to say, but there are people who would pick up and leave in your situation. I hope the best for you.





And I can't thank you guys enough. Since I'm 21, and had a kid, I've lost touch with a lot of my friends, so this is good therapy. Don't take this the wrong way, but I honestly didn't know if the responses were going to be like "hang in there man, we all have problems" or more like "you think YOU have problems? let me tell you about problems, whiner..."

phinsup

Problems are relative you know. Everybody's problems are a big deal to them. Hell I ain't got $3.00 for a starbucks, seems like a pretty big issue when I am walking by the local starbucks.



I simply cannot relish in other people's misery, it doesn't make me feel better at all. I have never understood those statements. "You think you've got it bad."



Like I say, it's taken me a long time to get there, but I focus on the good. Live my life to enjoy today, not think about how great yesterday was. Some day you WILL not get tomorrow, it's inevitible.

Baldy

yeah, I figured that out in high school. When some chic offed herself, because she was depressed about a boyfriend or something like that (I think there was a chemical inbalance in there somewhere, but that's beside the point). Whereas, I had a kid in my class who was on his own at 18, and his problems involved coming to school after working all night.



People would wonder how someone could overreact so horridly to something like a relationship. They just didn't understand how bad it was to HER, when they would think that not having a home would be more serious.

phinsup

Your problems effect you, and things that effect you are going to impact you, if you started worrying on everyone else's issues and you'll be a pretty unhappy monkey. sure it saddens me to see others unhappy and if I can do something I do, but when I can't it helps them none to pitty them.